Friday, September 14, 2007

Nicholas . . . Need I say more?

It's another normal day at the White house. Nicholas and I are playing cars. Eliana is asleep in my room. Life is slow and quiet. Soon enough, I hear the faint grunts of the sleeping girl, and know that I need to respond quickly before the grunts turn to shrieks. So, Nicholas and I go into my room and pick up the baby. I turn on a show to occupy Nicholas so I can change and feed Eliana. Being an obedient toddler, Nicholas sits down to watch Blue's Clues. But as soon as the diaper is off, he jumps up and climbs up the treadmill.

He's clever, this one. He knows that I won't leave an un-diapered child alone. I hurry and put Ellie's diaper on and pull Nicholas down. "Sit here," I command. "I'll be done in a minute." Nicholas smiles at me. "OK Mamma. Ni-Ni sit."

But I'm smarter than that. I know the magic of Blue and Steve is only strong enough to last 5 or 10 minutes. Hoping Eliana isn't too hungry (yeah right), I sit down to feed her. Nicholas asks what I'm doing. I tell him I'm feeding baby sister. He says, "Baby sister eatin' ice cream." "No," I laugh." "Baby sister is eating milk." Nicholas looks again. "No," He says. "Baby sister eatin' Mamma." Feeling oddly uncomfortable, I tell Nicholas to watch his show. But my words fall on deaf ears, as he makes a break for it and runs out the door. What happens next is what ALWAYS happens lately -- he goes to wash his hands. Now what mother would run in a panic if her child wanted to wash his hands? Any mother who sees her 21 month old son perched on the edge of the kitchen sink, both hands in the water, balancing on a cabinet door with his big toe.


And so the death-defying acts continue day after day. I guess that is just what makes Nicholas, Nicholas.

P.S. Just so the third member of our crazy at home trio isn't left out -- here is Eliana at 5 weeks.



Sunday, September 09, 2007

Superficial Inspiration

Did you ever see anything that truly inspired you to be a better person? I did -- it was in the paper this week. I know for a fact that if I had this laundry room I would enjoy the doing laundry. I would probably do laundry EVERY day. AND -- I would cheerfully volunteer to iron my husband's shirts. It's true . . . This laundry room would make me a better person.


And speaking of inspiration, I really believe that owning this shirt would inspire me to fix my hair, put on make-up, and not wear sweats around the house every day.

Ok, while I'm still visiting my fantasy world, I truly believe that if I got to see this out my back door every day, I would be a happier person . . . which in turn would make me a better wife and mother. See -- in my fantasy world, everyone wins!

Friday, September 07, 2007

The Amazing Memory of Nicholas

Part One:
A few weeks ago, the children and I were rushing through Walmart. The boys had a birthday party to get to, and I had to pick up my mom from the airport. In a moment of insanity, I stuck our little Houdini in the cart basket for a second. . . Sensing freedom, Nicholas tried to climb out, but ended up falling onto the concrete floor. Unfortunately, his head caught the fall. I watched in horror as a bump the size of a golf ball grew on his forehead. Sobbing, I rushed him to the ER, where they did an MRI and pronounced him nothing but bruised.

His bruise four days later

Part Two:
Nicholas has always been a mother's dream when it comes to sleeping. At 7:30 every night, he asks to go to bed. He'll also ask for a nap occasionally. He has no problem going to sleep by himself. And he'll sleep till 6:30 or 7:00 in the morning. A few days after his fall, he freaked out when we tried to put him to bed -- he did not want to be left alone in his room. He woke up multiple times in the night crying and would not go back to sleep unless someone stayed in his room. Josh and I just thought it was because of the many changes in our house, and hoped he'd grow out of it.

Part Three:
A few days ago, Nicholas and I were playing in his room. For a brief moment, the room was silent. I heard a faint beeping noise. I wondered out loud, "What is making that beeping noise?" Fear appeared on Nicholas' face. He climbed into my lap and screamed, "No beep! No beep!" Strange, I thought. So we did a long search to discover what was making the noise. Hidden in one of his drawers was a toy running out of power. I turned off the toy and told Nicholas no more beeps. He looked at me for reassurance and asked over and over again, "No more beeps? Beeps all gone?" I repeated over and over again, no more beeps, until he was satisfied and went back to play. That night, before bed, he asked again "No more beeps?" "Beeps all gone," I said. He slept through the night for the first time in almost three weeks.

I told Josh what I thought was a funny story about the beeps. Josh told me that when Nicholas had his MRI, they told him he would just hear a few beeps and then he would be all done. So my poor boy has been hearing beeps for three weeks, scared that he would have to go into the machine again! I was shocked that he had remembered it! But the mystery is solved -- the beeps are gone and night time is peaceful again.

Thursday, September 06, 2007

We made it to a month!!

I can't believe that tomorrow it will be a month since our sweet Eliana joined us. She is so much fun -- we all adore her! It's strange how now I can't even imagine life without her. She is such a wonderful addition to our family!



And Nicholas finally loves her too! He always asks to hold her or give her a binky. And the minute she makes any kind of noise, he makes sure to tell me "baby sister crying!" I was worried for nothing! I can tell these two are going to be great friends.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

First day of School


Two years ago, we dropped Sam off for his first day of Kindergarten. As we pulled out of the parking lot, the tears started flowing. Benjamin wanted to know what all the fuss was about.
b: Mom, why are you crying?
m: I'm just a little sad about Sam starting school.
b: he's not going to be gone forever -- we have to pick him up today.
m: I know, but I'm going to miss him.
b: when I start school will you miss me?
m: of course I will!
b: but will you miss me so much you cry?

So today, my dear sweet Benjamin, as you start your first day of Kindergarten, know that I miss you so much I cried.

I can't believe that Benjamin is in kindergarten and Sam is in 2nd grade! How fast time does fly. And although I was very grateful for the quiet, non-chaotic house this morning after they left, I do miss them -- more than even I thought!


Monday, August 27, 2007

To all her adoring fans


Here is Miss Eliana at 2 weeks. Of course, tomorrow she is turning 3 weeks. It's funny how when you are pregnant, time seems to crawl. But once the baby is born, time runs as fast as it can, till there is no possible hope of ever catching up.

At Ellie's 2 week doctor's appointment, she had already gained 1.5 pounds! She looks so different from when she was born -- she has a double chin already and her cheeks are beginning to fill out, and she getting little fat rolls in her arms and legs.
I wish I were a baby, when it's cute to have double chins and fat rolls. People look at babies and say, "Look how big you are getting! I love your cute round cheeks!" Right now, I'd really like someone to say to me, "Look at the rolls on your arms, they are adorable! I love your double chins -- what a big girl you are!" (Of course, the tone matters -- it would have to be said in the same adoring tone reserved for babies!) But if that were the case, I might never be inspired to loose the baby weight.

At least I can look at my cute fat baby and realize that MY un-cute baby fat is worth it!



Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Eliana is one week old!

Having a new baby is a lot of work -- the diapers, the constant feeding, the crying . . . But it always amazes me how wonderful it is to have a new baby in the house. There is just a peacefulness that comes with the baby. And an indescribable joy, despite the lack of sleep and personal space (and some days, time to shower). Eliana has brought such light to our lives. We are one lucky family!


Nicholas is NOT happy!

Nicholas, who turns 20 months old today, is very unsure of the changes his life has taken lately. We tried to prepare him for the new baby. We showed him the blankets and clothes for his new baby sister. We pointed out other babies and told him we were going to have one in our house. And we knew that there would be a period of adjustment. But I was not prepared for how he reacted! In the hospital, he wouldn't let me touch him. He wouldn't come to me or talk to me, and he wouldn't even acknowledge Eliana.

We bought him a Blue's Clues toy for a "big brother" gift. When we gave it to him in the hospital, he seemed really excited about it, until we told him it was from baby sister. Then he promptly threw the toy on the floor and didn't want to touch it again. So much for bribing her way into his heart!

Once we got home, he clung to Josh for dear life. If I tried to hold him, he would cry "NO. NO. Want DADDY!!" If we put Ellie any where near him, he would push her away and start crying. Josh went to work back to work yesterday, and it broke Nicholas' heart. He cried, "Nicholas go Daddy's car too!"

Then, overnight, he accepted his fate. This morning, he looked at her and smiled. He said, "Nicolas baby sister." Perhaps all is not lost. . .

Thursday, August 09, 2007

It's a girl!!

Eliana Joy White was born August 7th at 1:59 p.m. She was 7 pounds 6 ounces and 20 inches long, with a head full of dark hair.



Here is Josh's narrative of the day:

I arise at 6:30 a.m. We need to drop the boys off at a friend’s house, and then head to the hospital. After getting myself ready and after unplugging the video and picture cameras from their respective power sources, I help get the kids to the car and we leave the house.

At 6:45 a.m., Rachel and I are on our way to Providence hospital. As we drive down Imperial, we see a family friend who is on his way to work. And, after mouthing, “Are you going to the hospital?” and reading “Yes” from our expressions, he gives us a thumb’s up and “Good luck!”

We get to the hospital at around 7:00 a.m. After Rachel changes clothes, there’s a lot of waiting.

Finally, at around 8:00 a.m. a woman by the name of May comes in and begins to set up a baby-delivery package on a table. After just a few minutes, Ms. May has arranged a wide array of medical instruments and cloth materials that might be needed at delivery. She instructs a intern nurse as to the various stages of “opening” a labor and delivery scene.

It’s 9:00 a.m. More waiting. The hospital room is cold, but Rachel doesn’t feel it. Because she is not in labor, I take a ten-minute break to warm up outside and to drink a glass of orange juice. When I return, Rachel and I watch a news story on a coal mining catastrophe in Huntington, Utah—as well as other headlines. We also talk about the boys’ school supplies, soccer sign-ups, and other things that need to be done this next week.

The anesthesiologist arrives at around 10 a.m. And, because of Rachel’s quick labors, he has been instructed to begin administration of the epidural before Rachel is given any labor-inducing drugs. Rachel is told to sit up with her back to the doctor so he can put in the spinal catheter. I decide not to watch. Minutes after Rachel sits up, three nurses come into the room and immediately begin checking monitors and quieting alarms. The baby’s heart rate has dropped to the low 40’s, and no one tells us why. Rachel and I are perplexed because labor hasn’t even begun; and we wonder whether an epidural can affect the baby. I ask some questions, and, in response, the anesthesiologist discusses the importance of blood pressure and the effect that an expectant mother’s low blood pressure may have on her baby. Epidurals can cause low blood pressure. But he doesn’t think the epidural is the problem. Still, whatever is causing the problem, the whole scene is quite alarming. The C-section room down the hall is being prepared, just in case. Rachel and I are very glad when Rachel’s doctor arrives.

It is determined that Rachel will need to lie on her side because our daughter seems to do better in this position. Indeed, her heart rate has recovered significantly—i.e., back in the 150’s or 160’s. We’re then told by the attending nurse that she is supposed to wait to administer labor-inducing drugs until the baby has had a half an hour to recuperate.

At around 11 a.m., the attending nurse finally turns on the oxytocin—a Greek-named drug meaning “quick birth.” Shortly thereafter, the contractions start hitting hard. I’ve seen oxytocin work on two of my three boys this way, so I’m not surprised. I’m just glad that Rachel isn’t feeling them. Still, we’re told that the hospital policy is to keep the contractions “below 400” (whatever that means). And then we’re told that Rachel’s contractions are “easily at or over 500.” As I look at the real-time graph on the monitor screen, it becomes clear to me that my daughter’s heart rate is suffering because of the hard contractions. Indeed, I can hear the pounding clicks from a machine that measures my unborn daughter’s heart beat slow down every time Rachel has a contraction. More alarms. More nurses. More calls to Rachel’s doctor. Eventually, the attending nurse cuts back on the oxytocin, and, as the contractions remain “off the chart,” she cuts the oxytocin altogether.

Just after the noon hour, Rachel’s doctor comes in to again assess the situation. He is not surprised to see how quickly Rachel has progressed, and he explains his reasons to the attending nurse. He leaves the attending nurse with instructions to keep monitoring the situation, and he says that he is confident that he’ll be called back soon to deliver the baby. The attending nurse seems doubtful. But, unlike Rachel’s doctor, she wasn’t there when Nicholas was born.

Sometime after 1:00 p.m., the attending nurse follows up on Rachel’s progression and is stunned to find that that baby is about to be born. She commands that Rachel not to push until she has had a chance to call Rachel’s doctor. Fortunately, Rachel’s doctor is in his office just two floors down. He is dressed in delivery garb and ready to go. Within minutes after his arrival, our baby girl is born. Both she and Rachel are doing very well.

After our daughter is born, it is determined that a “true knot” in her cord was likely the cause of her distress during labor. Evidentially this occurs in less than half of one percent (.521%) of all pregnancies. But Rachel and I are very relieved when her Apgar scores come back as nines.

Rachel and I decide to name our baby girl Eliana—which is Hebrew for “God has answered.” We will call her Ellie for short—which is a reference to light and life itself. Welcome, Ellie, to your new home. Welcome.




Thursday, August 02, 2007

Kids say . . .

Here's a post of some funny things that have come out of my kids lately.

Nicholas:
Nicholas is pretty good about eating everything. And lately, he'll say "like it" when he REALLY likes something. So the other night at dinner, he was really enjoying his corn on the cob and asked for more. He said, "More Porn. Like it Porn!!" Isn't that sweet?

When Sam and Benjamin were fighting, Benjamin started crying. Nicholas turned to me and said, "Benjin crying. Sammy bad, bad bad!!" It never ceases to amaze me how quickly kids catch on to things.


Benjamin:
Benjamin: I’m sick.
Josh: No you aren’t
Benjamin: Then how come I have a fever?
Josh: Buddy, you don’t have a fever.
Benjamin: I do -- I can prove it. Every time I check my temperature with a thermometer, it tells me F for fever.

Sam:
Sam: Did you know Tarantulas can talk?
Josh: No they can’t.
Sam: Yes they can -- they have to talk to mate.
Josh (ears perked): What do you mean?
Sam: Well, one Tarantula has to asks another tarantula to mate, and the other one has to say if they want to.
(And thankfully the conversation ended there . . .)

Friday, July 27, 2007

8 random things about me... tagged

Tagged..

Here are the rules:

A. Each player lists 8 facts/habits about themselves.
B. The rules of the game are posted at the beginning before those facts/habits are listed.
C. At the end of the post, the player then tags 8 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know that they have been tagged and asking them to read your blog. I was tagged, so let the fun begin.....

1. When I was younger, I didn’t like chocolate. Now I wonder how I can possibly exist in a world where there isn’t a piece of chocolate cake available to me at all times.

2. I want to go to Italy some day. And the thing I want to see most in Italy is Michelangelo’s Pieta, which I believe is the most perfect piece of art ever created. (also, I am fully prepared for the fact that I will probably cry when I see it.)
3. I have never been to Disneyland or Disneyworld. My parents and brothers and sisters have all been multiple times, but not me.

4. I hate cleaning out the fridge. I would rather clean anything else than clean out old food from the fridge.

5. I really enjoy cooking and trying new recipes. I just wish that I had kids that shared in that. As it is, we eat tacos and french toast more than I would like.

6. I am more scared about getting an epidural than about the pain of natural childbirth. After complications from a failed spinal with Nicholas and having to go through the procedure to fix it, I would rather endure labor pain than get an epidural. (I am afraid to tell my doctor that because I’m sure he’ll look at me like I’m crazy -- which is the same look Josh gave me when I told him).

7. I don’t like being the center of attention. I prefer to sit back and watch.

8. I love children’s books -- both well written and well illustrated. Some of my favorites are:
A Mouse Told His Mother
Whatley's Quest
The Little Mouse, the Red Ripe Strawberry and the Big Hungry Bear
One Duck Stuck
Robin's Room
Alphabet Soup
The Three Little Dinosaurs
Petite Rouge

and now YOU are tagged..... (well, except that everyone has been tagged, so enjoy reading their list of 8!)

Thursday, July 26, 2007

The BEST Baby Shower EVER!!!

I have the best, most creative friends! They threw me a baby shower and it was absolutely adorable!!

It all started with the bedding set I bought . . .

Next came the most adorable invitations in a bottle, complete with sand and shells . . .


How cute are they?!!


Next came the cake . . .
Melanie asked what kind of cake I wanted. I said lemon sounded good. And she said she had never made a lemon cake before . . . so she tried out a dozen different recipes until she found the perfect one, that was SO very delicious!!


Then came the diaper cake . . .
It had little soaps, cute hair clips, a personalized onesie and wash cloth, and the tiniest bracelets! So adorable!!


And rounding it all up, the favors . . .
So cute and they smell so great!! I love them!!


All that's left now is the baby (12 days and counting!)

Thank you Laura!! Thank you Deena!! Thank you Claudia!! Thank you Andrea!! Thank you Melanie!!

Friday, July 20, 2007

I'm changing my look!

Have you ever wondered what you would look like as a cartoon character. No? Well, neither did I . . . until I came upon this website:
http://morph.cs.st-andrews.ac.uk//Transformer/

Here is what Josh and I would look like. I think I'll stick to human!!


Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Josh

Saturday was Josh's birthday. For him, the perfect day would be not recognizing it was his birthday -- not getting presents -- not having cake, just a normal day. Of course, being a dad, he realizes that his birthdays are no longer about him but about a chance for the boys to celebrate him.

So what did Josh decide to do on his birthday? He told the boys that he wanted to go to Chuck E. Cheeses! Once there, Josh spent all his "birthday" tokens playing games to win the boys tickets.

When it was time to open presents, Josh opened two transformers -- then gave them to Sam and Benjamin and told them that his kids gave him the greatest happiness in life, and to thank them he wanted them to share his presents.

Probably not the most exciting birthday for a 30+ year old, but what a fun birthday for his kids.

How lucky are we?!!



Friday, July 06, 2007

Handsome Haircut

I have always been a fan of short hair on my boys. If their hair even hints at touching the tips of their ears, off it goes. So, it kind of surprised me that I let Nicholas' hair get so long. I just couldn't bring myself to cut it, for whatever reason.




But, finally it got to be too much, and I took him in. When it was over, I realized why I had let his thin, stringy hair get so long . . . because it kept him looking like a baby. Now with his new "handsome haircut" (as he calls it), he looks all grown up. Baby Nicholas has been replaced by just Nicholas.




I knew it was bound to happen, but I was hoping for later rather than sooner. Bye-Bye stringy mullet hair, bye-bye baby . . . Hello Mr. Nicholas.